im a grotesque abomination, skulking cautiously through the world, desperately praying to be left alone by other people while in public, smelling like gasoline and old bread, dressed in rags from head to toe, filthy and greasy with a filthy, greasy dick, heaving my girth around awkwardly, my eyes dart here and there, hypervigilant, avoiding direct eye contact, carrying a mountain of books around in a bindle, my sisyphus rock, drinking alcohol until everything blurs and i collapse into a literal pile of garbage, wholly inanimate, save the leaking piss from my limp, wrinkled, useless dick.