I used to be extremely competitive, first chair trombone for ten years, undefeated wrestler in high school, #1 raiding guild in Vanilla World of Warcraft. I had to be the best, failure wasn’t an option. Speaking to a therapist he asked, “Why is it so important for you to be the best?” I couldn’t come up with an answer. Ever since them I’ve been the polar opposite. Uber casual and apathetic. I’m over weight and unemployed.